Despite generally enjoying my job I'm feeling forced to look for something else. But everytime something appropriate comes up, something where there's a strong suspicion that I'd apply, it seems that my current bosses manage to wangle their ways onto the prospective interview panels - despite these being external positions. I don't think that's particularly fair. In fact, I think it's downright horrible. But that's what happens when you're a "highly valued member of the team". If I was so highly valued, I wouldn't have had to wait over 18 months for a contract, I wouldn't have gone 4 years without a pay award, I wouldn't feel like I was constantly overlooked for things and held back, I wouldn't feel forced to look for something else. They can't give me what I need, but they keep blocking my attempts to leave.
I try to stay positive and see the funny side of things; there's usually something humorous to eek out of most situations - something to help you pick yourself up and move on, try a different approach. Today I'm not in that place. Today I've had it confirmed that I'm being shafted. Today I am utterly fed up. Today I feel like giving up. Today I want to go to my favourite place to be alone and for it all to be better when I get back...
This is Peel Tower on Holcombe Moor, near Ramsbottom in Lancashire. The world is quiet there.
...it's just a shame that it's pitch black and freezing cold.
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